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Moments break you, moments make you, but what is that creates the moment. It is me; it is you indeed it is we!! Moments are good, they are bad, In a moment there is a fear lurking inside, there is hope diminishing the dark light, an array of things lined, fear of rejection, fear of fall, a wish to grow and a stick to hold. Life is uncertain i have realised, bad luck and bad moments are a part of life, but what is that gives the inner life that bright light to shine in the dark!! In the moments of past, people have left and we are still stuck, things have changed and I m still caught, world is ruthless and selfish; I have realised, but what’s that, which still gives me a small smile, a blush??  It is you.  It’s me...Yes the people around!! In those moments ; A word just asking how you are... or simply a good morning makes the day, A tea at bed side, Or A sweet message in the morning, One simple line don’t worry I am there, Or just a word you looking great today, B

To my angel my best friend I just thought if you were not in my life it would have been an errand You are my cuppy cake, my sweet spoken jelly If you were not in my life it would have been an ally On your birthday I pray to the almighty, that my baby’s every wish come true, may god bless you and never in life you see any Grey or Blue. Love has many forms but your love for me and mine for you has a different charm. Your anger is something that I hate to handle, but deep within there is a feeling you are my private property so it’s only me who can handle. I love you the way you are, because when you are what you are I dun need another friend, family sister or any relations of any form, you are my world to me, and you mean the world to me!! Feeling of ever being apart from you kills me, because in every form I feel I am a – part of you and you are a-part of me!! Your birthday is the day that I will treasure for life, Thank you God for bringing her in my life;  I stil

What is it like to wait? Wait can be numerous and in varied ways. One may be waiting for a life changing event, other can be for a person, and another could be for something which you know, would never come to you, but still you keep waiting. So waiting is something endless, one ends another starts but what if you have always kept waiting and things don’t turn up at all?? Or when you are waiting endlessly, without a hope for it,  are you one dumb wasting your time and energy?? But are we really dumb and keep waiting seamlessly and uselessly. From where comes the thought WAIT?? The time doesn't stop, the heart doesn't stop, memoirs keep running, and that’s where the mind keeps waiting. In one normal life we wait for lots of thing, from waiting at railway station for the train or waiting for the flight OR the metro OR to just place an order at some KFC or C.C.D, We all wait. Wait can be to start afresh, to get some rewarding career or to get that long aw

We the Homo Homo Sapiens   are never satisfied with what we have, when   studying we all were tempted by the life of working professional, that salary of own and all the fun of awaited weekend is all that we longed for, and equally now we yearn for some "ME Time" While  working 9 to 7 everyday and  waiting for the weekend, slowly we realize that we are missing on something, initially the joy of Job change or new change keeps us occupied but certainly, may be delayed there is realization that we are missing on something. That long awaited weekend seems to lose the meaning because we feel,there is no point sleeping and wasting it, and all thanks to the colored flavored drink. We start to actually think, what is that?  What is lacking? I have what I wanted but still this emptiness and boredom, should I start with an N.G.O? Studies? Start-Up? Side Job?  Amidst all we think there were so many thing which fascinated us, then the realization that something is missing. 

Random Dark Thought!!! Seems dark…no I am not talking about the night rather I am talking about the darkness lurking inside me. I am pissed off, frustrated and little bored of what I have been doing. After doing the same thing past sometime  monotony do come, but for a student, he has to keep studying, toiling, so monotony is no surprise, but what is troubling is the idea, I feel monotonous and feel I need a change but then, when I am out trying to celebrate my break, I am tensed, tensed about my time being wasted, yes because I don’t have time left …have got lots to do and time is running fast but at the same time the problem still persist   i.e I NEED A CAHNGE/ BREAK . My doors are not opening it seems I am stuck at a level in the game and am trying to reach another level but I am not able to, I really can’t change the game or leave the game or cheat… I don’t have even enough points to help with guess option, what do I do…and that’s the time I start to lose hope. Life offers di

This is not I am meant for… This is not I strived for… This is not I lived for… What I thought is turning to a gleam… Which way to go …Dark it seems… Life is offering…what I didn’t ask for… I am not getting what I strived for…  Should I satisfy with what I am getting …??? Or Father you have made some different settings???? Dreams and wishes have become a bizarre   Don’t know what to ask and what to desire...!!! Hopes are ending and strength hollow I cannot stand this blow… O Father why can’t you see.. This is not I asked for… This is not I strived for... This is not I am living for...